Back From School

Yeah, doing nothing. Went to school today, didn't do much. I hate school. I have like two friends. And a few other people that I kind of hang with. And I can never say anything to anyone. I never know what to say. So usually I just sit there and stare, and talk to Nikki about stuff. And she makes fun of fat people and her dad, and talks, and I listen. And Kristen complains, and I listen. And Brett spazzes out, and I join him. I love that kid. So anyways, right now I'm talkin to Matt and he's trying to get me to move to Spokane. Umm... I really got nothing to say.I hate Easter candy. It's so yummy! How can I resist thee, Jellybeans? Hahaha. Mmmm...I like da pink ones :) Ooh, I wore my shoes that I made today. A lot of people noticed them and complimented them. Funny how that happens, sometimes I'm noticed, sometimes I'm not. But they're hot pink checkered. I used permanent marker and put pink squares all over them. I'm thinkin I wanna make another pair. Gotta go to Wal-Mart and buy some generic white shoes again. Hmm...thinkin of a design.I ended up doing it again last night after I posted. I don't know why. Just wanted to. I feel so weird... It's messed how much I've started wanting it. Just kinda makes me feel there and I like the hurt. Then Dave came over and he could tell something was wrong and wouldn't leave me alone, so I told him. And he pulled up my sleeve and looked. And it made him feel so bad, I didn't know what to say. I felt like such a bad person. So I just hugged him and cried. And he made me promise to call him when I want to do it again. I don't think I will. I feel really bad about that, but I'm being truthful when I say I just don't want to call him when I want to do it.