Good News

So yeah, good news. Been resisting the urge to be bad all day, especially since I had to go to my grandma's for dinner. I feel so awkward whenever I'm at family functions. Like I can't say what I want to, and they all don't like me. I get the guilt trip feeling too. But I excused myself early, drove home, and started the 5 hours of psychology...And got about 3 hours of it done!! Which made me feel good. It helped though that I had no distractions as my family was still at my grandma's. Then my dad went to get my supplies I needed from his shop. Surprise, he brings home my project--already put together and working for me. So now all I have left is the presentation part, which is easy now that I know what I'm working with. I'm feeling in pretty good shape, and I got a surprise call from Dave, and he's coming over. I still want to cut, want to feel the pain...but I know things are ok, I keep telling myself that and life is good. I really don't know why I do it. I only do it on my arm (right since I'm a lefty) and I keep wanting to do it more and more. I feel so messed up. *breathes* But it's a good day. It really is. Besides the family crap, I'm actually catching up with my work. I'm dreading going back to school tomorrow :( I really really don't want to go. I'm going to be so glad to leave it. Glad, but at the same time scared. Because I'm heading to the city, where I won't know anyone, and won't know where anything is.